Wanna see me die?? Well I'm not the one wants to die if that's what all of you are thinking. I just watch Coming Soon, a Thailand horror movie. For a person that has no fears for horror movies since I have too much REAL experiences, I think this movie is quite good, compared to Japanese and English horror movies. Got bored with all those similar plain styled Japanese long haired, no faced ghosts. The story line(plot) of the story is quite hard to predict, which is quite rare for me when I watch most horror movies. I never suspected that the story would end like that. It's been a long time since I've watched good horror movies. What makes the movie even better, I had to wait for four days just to download the movie using my slow internet connection just to watch it. even though the wait was long, I find it very worth it. I recommend this movie for all you horror movie fans out there. Peace.
Wanna see me die??
I'm sick!!!
Yesterday, after being hard headed to myself, wanting to buy cigarettes, even in the storm, I caught a cold, but I thought it would be only temporary because of going through the heavy rain. Today showed me wrong, it got worse, worse than I thought. My flu got worse, in addition to that, I even started coughing and got a sore throat. Good thing I didn't get a high fever, or else, I would be suspected H1N1...Wont want that to happen...
Such a sleepy day...
I had two exam papers for today, grammar and computer application in TESL. I didn't sleep at all the previous night just to study grammar. I was too afraid that I couldn't answer the paper, because I haven't made any earlier preparations. Knowing that today will be a very packed day of class, I had to face the circumstances. Class started at 9am and finally ended at 7.30pm. Normally, a person that undergo something like I did would rationally gone to sleep already, but not for me.. I have a surprise birthday party to attend at 10.30pm. Hopefully after that I can straightly go to sleep. What a day...
People in my life keep leaving me one after another...
The first most important person in my life that left me was my own mother. Even though 6 years has past since, the impact is clearly until today. I've been left all alone in this world even losing my own family...Without a source of living support, I struggle to continue life despite of me lacking the knowledge of managing my own financial expenses. Despite of not losing my loved ones, I seek for my need of wanting to be loved and cared... Ever since I continued my studies, I've meet a couple of people that cared a lot about me. Particularly a final year student in my own college. She's more like a big sister to me and I love her so much...but things immediately changed only after a year. She graduated. Once again I've been left all alone... The last moments I had together with her was her convocation day, which was full of sorrow. I couldn't face the fact that she'll be leaving me forever. I won't be getting to see her again. Though she's not even my own sister, but the feeling of losing a loved one is still the same, similarly strong, strong enough to break me down, falling to the ground... But time has past on. I've been continuing my lonely life all alone... by myself... I found a person that became close to me, and she cared for me. It's surprisingly weird knowing that some people would even want to know me, but she did. So I returned the favor by caring for her. Our relationship grew close together and since she's a year younger than me, she became a younger sister to me. To me, I couldn't care for my own sisters, so, I'm returning the favor by caring for her. She often shares her problem with me, no matter if it's her personal matter or not. And I would do all my best to help and ensure her happiness. But everything has it's limits... It turned out that I'm not that significant that I thought I could be to her... Her relationship with her couple cured up. I'm happy with it, in the same time feeling the sorrowfulness gaining back on me. It's not that I don't want her to be happy, but she's slowly leaving me back, and I'm slowly parting away from her attention. I think the time has come... my job here is finished. I've done what I'm supposed to do, and go back to what I'm supposed to be...alone. Things wont stop hitting me on the back, for me not noticing the lost of another significant person in my life, my uncle, the person that cared about me since the day my father left me. The feeling of sorrow is getting worst, the grief...it's equally the same as how guilty I feel not getting the chance to apologize to him. He scolded me ignoring my own father last year, the last moment that I ever saw him. But my ego keeps telling me that no one understands what I'm going through, and why I hate my own father. Now he's gone, never coming back, leaving me in this state, sinned. What have I done to deserve all this? What have I done to be left alone? Am I fated to be alone for the rest of my life...?
People in my life keep leaving me one after another...
The first most important person in my life that left me was my own mother. Even though 6 years has past since, the impact is clearly until today. I've been left all alone in this world even losing my own family...Without a source of living support, I struggle to continue life despite of me lacking the knowledge of managing my own financial expenses. Despite of not losing my loved ones, I seek for my need of wanting to be loved and cared... Ever since I continued my studies, I've meet a couple of people that cared a lot about me. Particularly a final year student in my own college. She's more like a big sister to me and I love her so much...but things immediately changed only after a year. She graduated. Once again I've been left all alone... The last moments I had together with her was her convocation day, which was full of sorrow. I couldn't face the fact that she'll be leaving me forever. I won't be getting to see her again. Though she's not even my own sister, but the feeling of losing a loved one is still the same, similarly strong, strong enough to break me down, falling to the ground... But time has past on. I've been continuing my lonely life all alone... by myself... I found a person that became close to me, and she cared for me. It's surprisingly weird knowing that some people would even want to know me, but she did. So I returned the favor by caring for her. Our relationship grew close together and since she's a year younger than me, she became a younger sister to me. To me, I couldn't care for my own sisters, so, I'm returning the favor by caring for her. She often shares her problem with me, no matter if it's her personal matter or not. And I would do all my best to help and ensure her happiness. But everything has it's limits... It turned out that I'm not that significant that I thought I could be to her... Her relationship with her couple cured up. I'm happy with it, in the same time feeling the sorrowfulness gaining back on me. It's not that I don't want her to be happy, but she's slowly leaving me back, and I'm slowly parting away from her attention. I think the time has come... my job here is finished. I've done what I'm supposed to do, and go back to what I'm supposed to be...alone. Things wont stop hitting me on the back, for me not noticing the lost of another significant person in my life, my uncle, the person that cared about me since the day my father left me. The feeling of sorrow is getting worst, the grief...it's equally the same as how guilty I feel not getting the chance to apologize to him. He scolded me ignoring my own father last year, the last moment that I ever saw him. But my ego keeps telling me that no one understands what I'm going through, and why I hate my own father. Now he's gone, never coming back, leaving me in this state, sinned. What have I done to deserve all this? What have I done to be left alone? Am I fated to be alone for the rest of my life...?
What? I think I lost my whole sunday...
Oh my god...what a super tiring day was it today. Woke up at 11.15am when I was supposed to attend an assignment meeting at 11am, undergoing a bit of a talk and straight to producing our products. Just had enough time to puff a piece of cigarette before proceeding with selling at three different colleges including mine. We finished the third, which is 4 times larger than mine, it was already 4pm. We were too exhausted at that time but we did get a chance to make ourselves "shisha", before going into an amazingly 2 hours sleep until 7. Hurried back to my college, counted our income, took a bath and straight out for dinner. And here I am, back in front of my beloved laptop, doing what I know best. I seriously don't feel that there is a Sunday for me this week, being in a very packed and busy state. It's like suddenly tomorrow class is starting and I didn't even get time to rest at all. Sigh...
Relationships...good or bad?
Relationships are about give and take, that's what most people say. I'm sure everyone want's to take really good care of their partner's feelings, but what about our own feelings? What if our partner limits our range for having friendship with other people, especially with the opposite sex. How far should I cover up this feeling of uneasiness just to care about her feelings, when deep inside I'm suffering?
People....
I've been caught in a conflict between my time management and group assignment for basic entrepreneur subject. I just can't stand people that don't understand that other people also have their own life. Why must they call me 30 minutes before holding a meeting when I'm already preparing for another plan? Do they think I'm the kind of person that only stays in my room and study 24/7? They should consider that other people have their own plans and inform meeting earlier so that others may adjust their plans easier. Well, this is just the second meeting for the assignment. I really hope that this wont happen again in our future meetings.
Oh my God...I've been to busy lately to post...
It's quite hard, being in a place where you need to join so called activities of your own choice to join. It's not that I care more the less in staying in the place, but sometimes it creates a dilemma where social demands come in account. This worries me as much as it worries me regarding my studies. Why does it have to be this way? Why can't I just I make a choice of my own? Anyway, debate trainings twice every week are also exhausting me, plus with studies and assignments, but it's what I plan to give full commitment into to ensure my stay here. I simply have no choice, it's either take it or leave it. I don't really have a choice don't I?
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